BALANCE

让我心动的人

2008-10-02T01:23:00.004+08:00

己好久没有你的消息
好久都没有和你谈心
好想念你总爱对我说
你近来痘痘怎么那么多
如今你是否还留长发
你是否仍每夜迟回家
你是不是还爱咬指甲
oh girl 我今夜好想你呀
梦若和你的一切都是梦
那为何我会心动
谁为了谁
为了谁心动在分分钟

风它不肯说
云悄悄飘过
黑夜它依旧沉默
只有天上一颗星星说她睡了
你是否也该休息了
风它不肯说
云悄悄飘过
心跳却说服我没有错

让我心动的人是谁呀愿那在梦中的你会懂

林俊杰-让我心动的人

_ , _ _ _ _ , _

2008-09-05T04:10:00.000+08:00

That's when I love you. I love you,more than you'll know.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cNDupepMg7c

2008-07-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

The key that opens the door to miracles is only in your heart.

2008-07-11T21:32:00.001+08:00

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀你在我胸口睡著
像这样的生活
我爱你你爱我

2008-06-09T23:57:00.001+08:00

That sense of belonging. You've to find it.

2008-06-04T00:19:00.001+08:00

Yes, the ball is in the back of the net. Yeaaay.

2008-06-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

Sanguine :)

2008-05-19T23:24:00.002+08:00

caught this from tv just now..and it just happened to elicit a response..

Courage and commitment are just like twin brothers. They come together.
If one day you lose the courage to continue, you might have probably forgotten what commitment was.

How apt.

2008-05-18T00:24:00.001+08:00

是新一段的感情开始，还是另一段的缘分结束

2008-05-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

You stand no chance when you don't even fight for the ball. You earn your chance when you fight for it.

Gearing up

2008-05-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

At times when there's something you don't want to lose, though firm in your stride, you struggle with all you might to move on a step at a time

2008-04-29T23:28:00.001+08:00

When it comes to the person you love the most in all your life, when you decide to part with that person, exactly at that very moment, you realize it was that person.

~*~
Are you dating the one you second-love?

2008-04-20T22:51:00.000+08:00

Self has been and is looking forward to June/July for a couple of reasons, mainly due to the brief respite from the hurtling pace, the load of activities lining up, and of course, in anticipation of the change in flux.

People are coming back this summer.

A personal opinion from me, though I believe that this resonates for many others as well. I am putting myself in the shoes of an overseas tertiary education student. For those who are returning to homeland (every year), with no doubt, the time back here is mainly utilised for catching up purposes, be it people or local delights. More so, I think that in this particular platform, as an overseas student, you stand a good chance of evaluating your emotional and sentimental desires, in terms of the people whom you would want to meet. For every reason, I believe that prior to boarding the flight home, a list of people must have been subconsciously drawn whom you would wish to meet dearly. The message is clear. The list is basically the group of people whom you like to keep as friends, something along that line. Not important, not included. Not withstanding the fact what time can do to people, and that ultimately it takes two to clap, nothing much could also be done if the other party doesn't make time for you. Let things be. The very fact that one is back only for a limited period of time, this time constraint factor somehow bears overarching inferences. I feel that an opportunity like this can indeed reflect a very true gauge of who you've selected and want as friends.

In addition, I suppose that there could lie the possibility of presence of fear within as you make your journey back home. The tingling fear of uncertainty, of feeling foreign, of being alone amidst once-close friends, of feeling distant. Never worry, because that's precisely the reason you're back. To bridge gaps, to re-connect again. And bear in mind that, the person on the opposite side could be feeling just that as well. Meat takes a while to thaw; and so do we.

In a similar fashion and from the opposite shore, I hope to see those coming back. It remains to be seen. I hope their return and subsequent meet-ups can cap off my would-be-wonderful vacation. Be the icing on the cake.

2008-04-13T23:56:00.002+08:00

After hearing all those, it has sharpened my resolve to set things right and make every little bit count. Sadly, I believed I'd fluffed that opportunity. However if there ever is going to be another chance presented to me again, I promised I'll cherish it close to my heart and put in the necessary effort to make things right. My finger is to my lips. One more please. I have to seal it.

I need to put the ball in the net.

2008-04-07T07:22:00.000+08:00

我的心, 真的受伤了。

2008-04-03T23:25:00.001+08:00

goodbye, farewell, take care

2008-03-30T02:41:00.000+08:00

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to mind
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And auld lang syne-

For auld lang syne, my friend,
For auld lang syne
We'll take a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.

2008-03-16T22:03:00.001+08:00

洋葱

2008-03-13T23:25:00.002+08:00

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群

盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现
你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸
你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMJsMDjy0EM&feature=related

There're certain things which you should give chances..this is one.
I'm addicted to it.

2008-03-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

I need some advice.

2008-02-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

There're some things I've realised:

1. Money doesn't feed the soul.

2. Some people will leave you at some stage in life. Out of this group, some come back, some don't. The distance will only grow.

3. Everyday is an opportunity.

4. Joining the rat race isn't exactly for me. That leads to more questions than answers. How sickening.

5. There's no need to care so much. Too much kills.

6. I've made a decision. An irrevocable one.

7. I'm tired.

~*~

2008-02-21T00:50:00.002+08:00

Everyday is an opportunity. Don't neglect it.

2008-02-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

It's better to ignore than being against your dislikes.

this made me pause and ..

2008-02-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

You have to consider is it fair to them not to let them go, even if it hurts you later. I knew there would be some stage where people said `why did you let him go?' but when I make that kind of decision, I am then happy someone asks me that question because it means he has been a success elsewhere. - Arsene Wenger

解脱

2008-02-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

爱永远都是难题
失去分寸太容易
谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼
有时候忘了珍惜
伤害来的太无意
有时爱太急需要空间呼吸
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻
然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的

如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着

让你哭泣对不起为了爱承受委屈
说过的承诺其实还没忘记
愈是在乎的关系愈是相处不容易
伤害了你我也失去勇气
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻
然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的

如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着

走到感情关键时候却握不住你的手
还能有什么藉口让爱再回头
多少的爱说不出口
就让时间帮我说话我一个人拼命挣扎
总比两个人一起难过还好吧

如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着
爱着你唯一的解脱

Take some time off, listen to this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJFrYsbzj9Y

I could find the connection.

~*~

You cannot guarantee the outcome, but you can guarantee your commitment and individual performance. Deliver.

2008-01-31T23:28:00.000+08:00

Sorry.

not too early

2008-01-28T00:34:00.000+08:00

They often say...

'That girlfriend of yours at the marriageable age will become your wife.'

Perhaps it has all got to do with timing, nothing else but timing.

2008-01-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

'The heart has reasons that reason doesn't know.'

2008-01-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

'I've come to understand that without commitment,you cannot have depth in anything,whether it's a relationship,a business,or a hobby.'

2008-01-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or neither been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

I'll constantly remind myself the purpose why I went for a vacation

Back to Avenue Q

2008-01-09T12:09:00.000+08:00

It's kind of unexplainable, but that's exactly what I'm feeling. A tinge of sadness, bouts of depression, moody, and plain laziness, especially when the weather has been cloudy lately. It's back to reality. When the plane took flight from heathrow, it was over. Whatever culminated has to go. An experience worthwhile, yet difficult to leave it. I miss the places. It's like withdrawal symptoms; something alike to a relationship breakdown.

Before I fell into sleep last night, memories of Avenue Q floated in my mind. It was a great musical I say. Not exactly comedy funny for me despite the humours here and there, but much of the content somehow relates to me. And I loved it because it was musical. Melodious. Sing-a-long. Catchy. One word- sweet. And some of the lyrics in the 2hr plus musical stay within me. I can't remember the exact lyrics and dialogue..and coincidentally and unexpectedly, those mentioned struck a chord...

My girlfriend, who lives in Vancouver...It's a pity she lives so faraway..in canada..
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime...
There's a fine fine line between reality and pretend..
There's a fine fine line between love and a waste of time...
I wish I could go back to college...
Pass the hat around...When you help others, you can't help but help yourself...
Finding a purpose in life..
Schadenfreude..
Knocked around by fate...

And, I forgot to take a penny from you.

not about leaving them by themselves, but leaving them behind

2007-12-22T16:09:00.000+08:00

Taking one last look at all the past messages in the inbox, I recounted briefly the series of twists and turns that have affected me throughout these two years. Briefly, because I've decided not to go deep into it. All I can say is, they shouldn't be meant for the inbox anymore. Tonight will mark a closure, and more importantly, chart a new beginning. --Refreshed and raring to go.roarr.

祝我生日快乐

2007-12-21T03:14:00.000+08:00

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁

一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难想切割切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点

生日快乐我对自己说
蜡烛点了寂寞亮了
生日快乐泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切

还爱你的一点恨
还要时间才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生

祝我生日快乐

--

2007-12-10T23:38:00.000+08:00

想起你的微笑
这画面短暂纪念
放在心里面
你说过得永远
留在昨天
就当它是
我最美的纪念

beautiful.

2007-12-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

Great weather! Sunny windy and happy :)

And yummy food after~

Nice getaway from the bustle of city noises-

All thanks to the beautiful beautiful weatherrr.

2007-11-25T00:01:00.000+08:00

What I ask of you is a truthful answer.

彩虹

2007-11-23T11:53:00.000+08:00

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAh_K4yb-k0

choc almond cake & peanut/choc mochi

2007-11-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

~*~

If there was something I could still give, that would be space.

2007-11-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

We hear by chance but listen by choice.

.../

2007-11-02T00:20:00.000+08:00

finally, come tomorrow, it will be the start of the 3day work week period. 7 more such weeks to the long awaited day. as the date approaches, there is no doubt the amount of anticipation goes incremental. it has been so long. it does feel surreal indeed. so many things have happened along the way.talk about changes. mentally yes, physically yes, emotionally most. at the end of the day when you look back, that's about it. I'm about where i started off. Somehow I'm lost for words. I've nothing much to say for this past 2 years. whatever has been said, has been said. nothing much to wait upon, nothing much to expect, nothing much.

and i know for soon, it's time to tidy up my room. the period to run through drawers.. photos. photos. i've been trying my best to avoid that for the past collective months. But i know it's time to visit them. they will pose a challenge, no doubt. as always, tidying up is more of 整理心情， rather than 收拾清理. but i will try my best. feelings have to be sorted out eventually, anyway. this will serve as a good opportunity to start afresh. I threw away the 07 calendar a week ago. I guess there is so much i want 07 to be over, because i believe 08 will bring something more meaningful. 07 fizzled by quickly, without any significant event. perhaps obtaining the license could be counted. well, make that count then. 1. in any way, i suppose looking back at 07 on the 1st of Nov speaks for everything. just want it to be over as soon as possible.

Upon hitting the much anticipated date, i hope life will take a turn towards the better. 16 months ago, i told myself to save adequately along the way, in order to be able to make a trip down. looks like it can never be materialised. With partA fufilled, but partB impossible, i guess the best way is to take those savings to 散散风。not really clever, but i see it necessary. come back refreshed after the vacation. important really.

I guess life is basically about leadership and management. leadership-doing the right things, and management-doing things the right way. therein lies the overlaps; leading your own management, and of course managing your own leadership. hit that dynamic balance and things would be on their way.

The grass is not greener on the other side;
The grass is greener where you water them

MY WISH - FOR YOU

2007-10-30T13:09:00.000+08:00

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

More then anything, more then anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
To your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more then you take.

Oh More then anything, Yeah, and more then anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
To your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=309BZ8klk2c

Hope a wish stays alive.

2007-10-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

I thought I wouldn't be affected at all. But it still did.

ronald cheng - 最爱的人不是你

2007-10-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

你剪下我一束发绕在无名指上
扬著笑抑著脸说当作指环好吗
你等著我回答得到眼泛泪光
可是请相信我当时同样悲伤

爱情啊原来是个精心设计的谎
每个人都被安排为某个人而受伤
她出现得太早而你来得太晚
有一天你也会有我这种遗憾

最爱的人不是你这不只让你伤心
但我心里还在枯等一个远去身影

最爱的人不是你却忍不住爱上你
我真的爱你但永远无法
像爱她般爱你

2007-10-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle.

CLEARING UP

2007-10-23T18:44:00.000+08:00

I threw away the 07 calendar on my desk today.

记得爱

2007-10-21T08:23:00.000+08:00

天空不断下着无声的雪
而我只有思念
勉强能温暖黑夜
拥抱离我已经千山万水
每个男人都有
说不出的心碎 oh yeah
我还爱着一个人但愿
回到美好的从前
也许痛的感觉证明了爱的深浅
不然为什么我还不撤退 oh～

记得爱所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开
伸出手继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待
就算风把我的头发吹乱

记得爱是我给过的答案
就不再考虑应该不应该
一滴泪落进无边无际的大海
至少我们都活得没有遗憾

只要记得爱就无所谓孤单

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FEmRcoilT-4

2007-10-17T23:22:00.000+08:00

stay sanguine. =)

something's just WRONG

2007-10-14T01:15:00.000+08:00

Started off on the wrong foot tonight, disappointment amidst of expectation in terms of food.

Followed on by some brownie treat which seemed to be optimistic as the night held on.

A debut ticket by the Traffic Police somewhat froze everything.

Just as The Daily Scoop ice cream may seem to be the perfect tonic for the night,

An accidental nudge just cause her camera to be sent for the repairs.

Overshadowed. :(

我知道你很难过

2007-10-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

爱一个人需要缘分
你何苦让自己
越陷越深
别傻得用你的天真去碰触不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴的等

爱一个人别太认真
你受伤的眼神令人心痛
没有一个人非要另一个人
才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己面对伤痕

我知道你很难过
感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂

我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人
今天说分说就分手
别问你的痛要怎么解脱
多情的人注定伤得比较久

爱若变成了刺
思念也成了痴
也许心碎是爱情最美的样子

2007-10-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

Whenever I start to think, I stop to think.

I guess that must be the way to go. yeh.

2007-10-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

有什么不妥，有话就直说，别躲在角落，不爽就反驳

sighh.trouble's brewing. 烦恼来了。

sometimes it's still better to keep things at bay.

2007-09-26T14:49:00.000+08:00

2007-09-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

For all the things that fall within your area of control, you try to do as much as possible. For all the things that are beyond your control, you should stop to control.

Ever wished not to control the things that you can control?

Why is it that all these skirmishes occur every now and then. Why is it that all of you are always looking for something to squabble about. Is there really a need to spike one another just to get your point across. This is vexing, because you're going to make life very difficult for everyone in the future do you know that. As much as I want to stay away from all these, I hope to rectify whatever that is deemed necessary. Being obstinate doesn't help. You got to listen, you got to try to understand. Sense the message. Not rebut remark against remark. Only when you listen, then you will have a chance to be introspective. correct them and carry on from there. As much as I want to made known my feelings, I feel apprehensive. And deep inside, I know that this bad habit of yours(s) is going to be detrimental in the long term if it is not corrected.

It is something I may have some control over with, yet I feel it shouldn't be me trying to influence. Because you're expected to know.

It is never hard to choose apathy. Yet somehow I don't favour apathy this time round. I'm confused.

I need someone to talk to.

2007-09-22T11:51:00.000+08:00

大雨过后的眼泪
挂在充满回忆的橱窗
我却不想忘以往
那些心碎的心创

记忆是一个行囊
陪伴着我到世界流浪
我让悲伤都装上翅膀
再见了就不能倔强

该忘了你对不对
怕自己无法面对
无怨无悔
把一切留给纪念
受过沉默的创伤
它会慢慢被岁月
一片片填满
渐渐就习惯不再想
忘记曾经最痛的地方

该忘了你对不对
我应该坚强面对
学会遗忘
不能像爱的挣扎
记忆会为我收藏
那些美丽时光
为爱付出过的力量
带着爱去寻找
幸福的希望

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBH-Tf6xcHE

2007-09-22T11:11:00.000+08:00

just saw something which I have no wish to. I think it's time to do it.
If I have to be harsh, I must. I got to.

It's time to wield the knife.

will i?

2007-09-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

I wonder if I'll ever get to catch a shooting star again.

behaviour.

2007-09-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

While I am still brooding over what happened this morning, it must say the reaction from me was something unusual. It wasn't intentional, I am dead sure about that; I merely took a shot towards goal and it merely strayed off track. To say that I was nonchalent at all when he picked up his phone would be tantamount to lying, yet, to say that I was afraid of what was going to happen would be incorrect too. I did no wrong. Maybe that's why I contemplated to apologise. I know too well that an apology may do the trick, and yet I didnt even step forward. It could be that I lack the courage to admit, but I suppose another overriding reason was that I actually felt defensive. Defensive to protect myself, protect myself from being exploited for unjustifiable reasons. The thought of him exploiting that loophole and seeking compensation and etc...just stopped me from stepping forward to apologise. I didn't know what was the best way out, so I stood ground. I thought. I weighed the atmosphere, the gravity of the situation. I listened. Eventually, I approached him and apologise, albeit one without much sincerity. He dismissed it promptly, disgruntling and self-justifying. His body language hinted to me that he wasn't concerned about listening. I gave him the cold stare, walk away, while at the same time, preparing myself for any consequences that might come against me and also comforting myself that things will be all right. I have to admit I wasn't a gentleman, as I didn't apologise immediately. It was certainly unfortunate that my ball hit your car. But I felt I had a reason for holding back my apology. To consider extensively in that short period of time, to give myself some time for not making the wrong move. Most importantly, to protect myself from unnecessary grudges against me. I didn't want to commit instantaneously. For all I know, a wrong start may snowball into something worse. And nobody wanted anything worse to happen. On hindsight, I think it was 50-50.

On the issue why I acted defensively, I can hardly fathom why. I supposed it's something I've picked up in office. When you get exploited many a times, you naturally want to defend. If there's something that I can take note, it should be that I got to check my actions in the future.

2007-09-16T00:39:00.000+08:00

yea i don't understand. probably i never will.

just wish to shut out from all these.throw them away.far away.never to bother again.

2007-09-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

wasn't there when you needed me the most.

two songs to accompany

2007-09-10T20:19:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8NuVsWpx4Sw
endless story - yuna ito

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBH-Tf6xcHE
该忘了你对不对
A very nice song. I've yet to get the lyrics. Seems to be unable to find it.

2007-09-09T23:12:00.000+08:00

There's something I wish to say but I won't know if I will ever get that chance. or if it will ever be necessary to say. But I do know that if I don't get to say, that person may never know.

I am waiting for the future to arrive somehow. I want to see how things will become.

Endless story.never-ending journey.

说对不起的应该是我才对
加油。

more than sad

2007-09-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

everytime I see it, it rubs it in.

perhaps thats why it might be time you will find me becoming reclusive.
perhaps i shouldnt be concerned anymore.
everything is proving too hard,too painful to bear.

i realise i havent been up.

thinking about

2007-09-02T01:28:00.000+08:00

Someone was missing. Someone was badly missed.

it dampens the night a lil.

2007-08-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

appreciation.recognition.

~*~

Do you believe in miracles?

photo

2007-08-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

A photo can say a thousand things
But it can't say the million things I wanna say
A photo can capture the way we were
But it can't capture the way we are
'Cause you're far away
What it's like to know you
What it's like to touch you

When you told me that you loved me
were those just words
You can't tell me you don't need me
and I know that hurts
'Cause I'm looking at your picture
'Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day
You and me will have one more shot

Timing lost minutes and moments
I might be lonely girl
But I'm not afraid
In a second
It all comes right back to me
Nothing's forgotten now
Yeah everything's saved
What it's like to touch you
What it's like to know you

When you told me that you loved me
were those just words
You can't tell me you don't need me
and I know that hurts
'Cause I'm looking at your picture
'Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day
You and me will have one more shot

You were my life
you were my faith
You gave me hope every day

Just a photo.

默

2007-08-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eee9l0GBqAg&mode=related&search=

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了我知道自己在你心里已不重要
虽然我们曾经相聚过也许对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆
带着一颗沉重的心走了我知道自己没有勇气道别离
虽然我们曾经拥有过但是对于你来说
经没有什么值得回忆
难道早以注定不能真正拥有你
难道我真心付出一切是为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道你不敢对我坦白是不要看到我的伤怀
虽然你没有说要离开我我已经感到你不再属于我

如果你还爱我你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我你不会对我如此的冷漠
只能含着眼泪
默默的离开

Jul 07

2007-08-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

2007-08-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

Success will never be final, failure never fatal.

一念超生，渡人自渡

shall we deliver.

2007-07-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

In less than 5 months' time, many things will change. While I can't wait to embrace the bright prospect ahead, a part of me suggests otherwise. and they have got everything to deal with the heart.

Issues related to the heart are not easy to manage.

I can imagine hairstyles changing and becoming funkier, greater autonomy, people beginning to pursue their dreams, picking up new hobbies, starting things afresh, many many more. Liberation could be the best word to describe come end of year, but what's more is the path that lies ahead. Friends going over for overseas exchanges, friends packing and sorting up their baggages(be it emotional or otherwise), the anticipation of the not-so-far-future. Some venturing into their careers, others laying the bricks for companionship. It is as if come dec, a fireworks display is bound to happen; each individual with each's route to choose and the random routes that will take us from here will lead to unknown destinations for each of us. It will be colourful; it will be full of surprises. And the most pleasant thing would be to of course, witness the growth. Whether it will turn out good eventually, i guess no one ever knows. I suppose the most important thing is to learn along our very own journey, picking up useful and healthy habits, discarding things we deem not suitable for ourselves. To continue to create and reinvent, and to finally establish something which we can be proud to call ourselves. The day when I look around and see my friends sprouting and becoming a somebody-with the natural essence and uniqueness within them, I guess there's no better word to describe than heartwarming. And I deeply believe that the day will arrive. The most soothing feeling of all is none other than seeing others doing things with passion, because passion does bring out the best in oneself.

The delivery will be inspirational.

---

2007-07-21T00:13:00.000+08:00

"A giant in words, but a dwarf in action"

When i caught this phrase, it was deafening. Apt. Many around me from 8-530 behave like that.

~*~

Hope you have a speedy recovery.

well wishes

2007-07-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

God bless a speedy recovery.

sometimes you need to let others know you are angry

2007-07-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

I used to receive comments that I have a good temperament. I finally uncovered the reason behind this, recently. I refrained from getting fussed, didn't mind witholding, hardly flare up, simply because, I didn't like being angry. Getting angry wasn't an option for me all along. I didn't like it. So I didn't choose it. Perhaps I saw no purpose in allowing myself to get angry over things. Perhaps I understood that frustration will not help things. Getting angry, perhaps to me, was the final straw. It only meant game over. And I don't like things to end.

Sometime now, all the above, I suppose it is diminishing. My temperament isn't as steady as it used to be. The recent experience spells it all. I was extremely disturbed by somebody. But I was sure I had the right to be angry. I value promises. I value what you say. Despite your valid concerns, I believe I still held the right to be angry. Because if you can't, you say you can't. You don't say you can. Sensitive? I think I am just being fair to my feelings. my friend's feelings.

I chose anger this time round because i don't want to feel repressed anymore. It's about being truthful.to you.and myself.
I realise I don't hold back any longer.

And it's proven that people who hold back their anger(& expression) have a tendency for back ailments. I've held back for 19 years.

2007-07-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

And I realised the best way to go is don't care.don't know.don't enquire.don't probe.

It feels extremely peaceful to do that.

The turbulence needs to take its leave.

stay away

2007-06-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

poised on the outside.iffy inside.

once again, the floodgates gave way and have everything circulating.

a very miserable, heart-wrenching feeling.

i want to stay away from all these.

It is as if heaven is making a fool out of me.

2007-06-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

看我们的队伍雄壮威武
看我们的纪律优秀严肃
看我们的力量九牛二虎
看我们的精神永不认输
公教 Oey
公教 Oey
NP Aeyy.ba!

My heart skipped a beat.

2007-06-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

There's a lot of meaning to life.

2007-06-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

Yeaa...there's so much to say..not quite much we can do...it will always be never-ending...

Maybe life has taken a turn for the worse...maybe all the experiences have shaped me into thinking this way..maybe this is what i gather all this while...

It has been one ear in, one ear out since then...

what happens happens lo. you say what what lo.

fucked up is simply an understatement.

2007-06-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

Although we lost today, the positives were still there...there is no cause for worry.

In fact, it was good to lose today i felt.

You win and lose some in life.

2007-06-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

在别人的剧本里，填自己的缘份

也许还是很傻。。。

I want to sing. want to sing for you again.

心型圈

2007-06-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

I like this song very much.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9B7zTfAK2EM
jolin - 心型圈

我送上初恋在你的面前
再将我爱你温习一遍
我无法首演对你的思念
若爱有风险我宁愿中箭
那一年春天爱发芽蔓延
我们故事颜色鲜艳
我将爱完全花在你身边
对爱纠缠很明显想腻在你的房间

触电的瞬间同一边肩并着肩黏你脸靠着脸
看着照片许愿傻笑了好几遍画十字在胸前
闭眼祈祷梦会实现

呵气在玻璃上面画心型的圈
雾渐渐不见你终于出现
听不进劝对爱死心眼
希望这趟爱情走很远

我用我指尖画心型的圈
然后碎碎念想像你听见
空出时间默背你的脸
认真翻字典查我们的永远

~*~

There are two kinds of favour; the small favour and the big favour
The size of the favour is measured by the pause before asking the favour

...

2007-06-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

Certain things could possibly be better if the calling is in my court; but really, when you don't, all you can do is stare and watch it go.

Into the distance.

2007-06-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

I'm unhappy.

2007-06-03T23:46:00.001+08:00

im seeing many things which are ugly, hearing things which i do not wish to hear, bounded by things which are stifling me. sometimes when i think of 6 months down the road, so much can be done.sometimes i can't wait.i really wish time can accelerate. it's going to be a brand new beginning. i need that start. sometimes it gets just so frustrating.

sometimes i do not wish to be involved in a fracas like this. sometimes i just want to stay away from all this. i want to be as indifferent as much as possible. because if u drag me in, i am capable of causing ripples.

they say, the thing about principles is..sometimes, it makes u hard to do things. how true.

Calculative? All i know is im willing to get eaten at times, but i need to be aware at least. that's being fair to myself isn't it. and in order to be aware, obviously i need to delve into details. By being detailed, it doesn't mean im trying to spot the loopholes and figure the best way out. all i wish is to be aware of what's happening. Without awareness, i dont think one can stand on your own feet. u will always be eaten. it's like people spin u round and round and u have no idea what's happening. all i want is to take note. i've got my own set of guiding principles.something that i choose to live with.and live for.

that's how important it is.

minutes

2007-05-31T03:05:00.000+08:00

It's good to talk things out once a little while.

Knowing how to get over/reduce the impact of unhappy things is a technique to be learnt.

Sometimes all we hear is a moment of truth.because that's what we say.

To understand the exact perimeters of what you can influence and what you are concerned about is paramount.

Being perfectionist doesn't help.

Rather do and not promise than promise and not do. Over promise, under deliver is a crisis.

Communication.Compromise.Commitment.Compassionate. The essential ingredients of a relationship.

Everything you do comes with a price. Make sure you can afford it.

Self-justifications, self-rationalisations are traps that we have to be careful of.

And the last one for tonight is,

Keep your fears to yourself, but share your courage with others.

Goodnight.

hopes in a bottle

2007-05-24T10:56:00.000+08:00

what the.

This is getting unbelievable.uncanny too.

Just as you're completely focused on A, B appears out of the blue.

i just hope it's nothing serious.nothing funny.no decoy.no unwelcome surprises.

2007-05-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNQQSC4sc3c

忘词 -五月天

nice song.

~*~
Hope it turns out fine tmr.

2007-05-21T19:49:00.000+08:00

I recalled it was exactly two years ago that I ended up in this similar pathetic state. exactly the same period, exactly the same finalists. liverpool agst ac milan. I remember 2005's champ league final to be on the 25th May, cuz it was on the same day when MJ held VJ at the National Stadium. hmm.

Soccer makes me think of World Cup 06....and a wish that was for World Cup 2010...

slept the entire day away and feel extemely lethargic still.
horrible.

It matters

2007-05-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

One moans, the next one nags, and the other irritates.
All so annoying.
Im really getting sick of all these. Each day is just so increasingly unbearable

I know all of you are playing mind games.or attempting to. You want to pretend you are helpless and try to hit on my soft spot. Okay, maybe you're really helpless. I am not interested. By doing this, you hope I will turn hero. But hey, let me remind you again. It's your job. I won't ever fall for your tricks again. What's more, heros die first. I don't ever want to die under your filthy hands. In fact, I had been contemplating if you guys deserve any respect. This contemplative process has not been a short one, mind you. One year plus. And right now, I know for sure you guys didn't earn it. I address you Sirs and Mdm; that doesnt mean I mean it. Yes, I am telling you to wake up your ideas. If you think you have the capacity to be up there, show it. Lead by example. Never did you once demonstrate, never did you once convince me. And the top one there, I know you've got your own agenda. Stop making things difficult for us. Lack of concrete action reveals your "concern" for us. Your mask has been unveiled. Game over. Try putting on a thicker one.

and for one thing that I am deadly sure over this extremely long protracted period which never seems to end, and that is, I am happy because all along I've been unhappy.

smoke

2007-05-14T21:31:00.000+08:00

If all you want is to package and fabricate figures, just to put on a good show to get closer to your performance grade, go ahead and do whatever you wish but please, don't waste my time.

s16!

2007-05-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

karen? weijun?

2007-05-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

A man will love his sweetheart the most,his wife the best,his mother the longest.

---

2007-05-06T21:58:00.001+08:00

As we grow up, I guess we're getting impatient on ourselves as well as to others around us. Whether we admit or not, I think the fact remains that we seem to give ourselves too little time in many occassions. Impatience leads to frustration and more often that not, that carries an element of disaster. Accusations, unwarranted snubs, brushing aside....how many times have we been subjected to such treatment. I am stressing on the frequencies. It has happened too many times. Sometimes it's between you and your colleague, sometimes it's you and your good friends, sometimes it's you and your family members. It's beginning to get a lil sick.

Perhaps all we need is just a lil understanding.

When people are pulling strings at the back and hoping to ensure that everything turns out fine, the least that one can do is not to disrupt, or if better, show something called appreciation. How one reciprocates and acknowledges the effort certainly varies. I feel that it is an art. It's something original, simple yet with a customized impact. Every individual has his/her own way to do that, which is what makes a token of appreciation even more appreciated. As long as it comes from the heart, it will be special.

~*~

Kbox session yesterday was good I would say. To be able to sing and take the unhappy feelings off you has got to be good. Songs which have come a long way since childhood are the best. Sing sing sing. Sing till you're happy.

Go. I am not asking for anything.

2007-05-04T00:39:00.000+08:00

resignation. i've got nothing more to ..

2007-04-29T23:03:00.000+08:00

感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

im disillusioned

2007-04-28T23:01:00.000+08:00

Tonight leaves me with disillusion. I suppose there's alot of things I don't understand and hopefully someone can come along and disclose the answer to me. Or perhaps there is no fixed answer afterall. Or perhaps I don't really wish to understand. Maybe certain things are not meant to be understood. Ever since, I've been taking such topics with a pinch of salt. Maybe I know all of this do not matter at all. In fact, they really don't. More often than not, I realise whatever we say are just moments of truths. It's a very situation-based kind of thing. As time runs, things take deflections, invisible factors come into foreplay, and we say another thing again. For me, actions speak a lot louder, yet sometimes, I do feel actions alone aren't enough. You got to live like it, you got to be the example. Lead by example. That's it. *Don't talk so much here, do your talk on the pitch

And yes, I feel very much like drinking tonight. I'm filled with thought-provoking stuff, which I can't seem to type them out. Too bad I don't have the company.

Between doing things right and doing the right things, I guess it's always challenging especially in relationship matters. Everyone is entitled to his/her opinions.(Opinions are like arseholes; everyone has one and it's full of shit :D) Therefore, listening will just do. I'm learning to listen more;learning to reserve my opinions & not jump to conclusions. I guess that will only be fair.

Noted.

My consolidation tonight: Humans are selfish. So, let's spare a thought for others.

a word of gratitude

2007-04-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

beats me...people seem to be falling down right in front of me lately.literally.
few days back saw this young daddy fetching his daughter back from school on a bicycle...and as they were going down a step, both of them suddenly went off balance and fell sideways. happened just a few steps ahead of me. i heard the knock of the guy's head on the ground.ouch.

another one came today as i was on the escalator down at yck mrt station. out of nothing, a middle-aged lady perhaps lost her footing and fell on her backside.as she was trying to regain her balance, she dropped again; this time on her back. two steps in front of me.

two scenarios shed light onto me. i reacted in exactly the same way. almost instinctively.
in the past, my reaction time would have been longer. more of a static.

i have only one person to thank for this.

If you see someone faint in the future, don't hesistate to help okay.
and i said, okay.

thanks.

LOUNGING

2007-04-24T12:48:00.000+08:00

A cloudy morning of light drizzles, coupled with english hits-perfectly idyllic. =]

ON ANTIBIOTICS

2007-04-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

It's has been some time since I last heard this word.
...years, I think.
Not in the best of health lately, reason unknown.
Appetite still good, as always.
shruggss

Looking forward to the weekend.

You're only as good as your last game

2007-04-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

2007-04-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

not good to fall ill again.