shall we deliver.

In less than 5 months' time, many things will change. While I can't wait to embrace the bright prospect ahead, a part of me suggests otherwise. and they have got everything to deal with the heart.

Issues related to the heart are not easy to manage.

I can imagine hairstyles changing and becoming funkier, greater autonomy, people beginning to pursue their dreams, picking up new hobbies, starting things afresh, many many more. Liberation could be the best word to describe come end of year, but what's more is the path that lies ahead. Friends going over for overseas exchanges, friends packing and sorting up their baggages(be it emotional or otherwise), the anticipation of the not-so-far-future. Some venturing into their careers, others laying the bricks for companionship. It is as if come dec, a fireworks display is bound to happen; each individual with each's route to choose and the random routes that will take us from here will lead to unknown destinations for each of us. It will be colourful; it will be full of surprises. And the most pleasant thing would be to of course, witness the growth. Whether it will turn out good eventually, i guess no one ever knows. I suppose the most important thing is to learn along our very own journey, picking up useful and healthy habits, discarding things we deem not suitable for ourselves. To continue to create and reinvent, and to finally establish something which we can be proud to call ourselves. The day when I look around and see my friends sprouting and becoming a somebody-with the natural essence and uniqueness within them, I guess there's no better word to describe than heartwarming. And I deeply believe that the day will arrive. The most soothing feeling of all is none other than seeing others doing things with passion, because passion does bring out the best in oneself.

The delivery will be inspirational.

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"A giant in words, but a dwarf in action"

When i caught this phrase, it was deafening. Apt. Many around me from 8-530 behave like that.


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Hope you have a speedy recovery.

well wishes

God bless a speedy recovery.

sometimes you need to let others know you are angry

I used to receive comments that I have a good temperament. I finally uncovered the reason behind this, recently. I refrained from getting fussed, didn't mind witholding, hardly flare up, simply because, I didn't like being angry. Getting angry wasn't an option for me all along. I didn't like it. So I didn't choose it. Perhaps I saw no purpose in allowing myself to get angry over things. Perhaps I understood that frustration will not help things. Getting angry, perhaps to me, was the final straw. It only meant game over. And I don't like things to end.

Sometime now, all the above, I suppose it is diminishing. My temperament isn't as steady as it used to be. The recent experience spells it all. I was extremely disturbed by somebody. But I was sure I had the right to be angry. I value promises. I value what you say. Despite your valid concerns, I believe I still held the right to be angry. Because if you can't, you say you can't. You don't say you can. Sensitive? I think I am just being fair to my feelings. my friend's feelings.

I chose anger this time round because i don't want to feel repressed anymore. It's about being truthful.to you.and myself.
I realise I don't hold back any longer.

And it's proven that people who hold back their anger(& expression) have a tendency for back ailments. I've held back for 19 years.

And I realised the best way to go is don't care.don't know.don't enquire.don't probe.

It feels extremely peaceful to do that.

The turbulence needs to take its leave.