im seeing many things which are ugly, hearing things which i do not wish to hear, bounded by things which are stifling me. sometimes when i think of 6 months down the road, so much can be done.sometimes i can't wait.i really wish time can accelerate. it's going to be a brand new beginning. i need that start. sometimes it gets just so frustrating.

sometimes i do not wish to be involved in a fracas like this. sometimes i just want to stay away from all this. i want to be as indifferent as much as possible. because if u drag me in, i am capable of causing ripples.

they say, the thing about principles is..sometimes, it makes u hard to do things. how true.

Calculative? All i know is im willing to get eaten at times, but i need to be aware at least. that's being fair to myself isn't it. and in order to be aware, obviously i need to delve into details. By being detailed, it doesn't mean im trying to spot the loopholes and figure the best way out. all i wish is to be aware of what's happening. Without awareness, i dont think one can stand on your own feet. u will always be eaten. it's like people spin u round and round and u have no idea what's happening. all i want is to take note. i've got my own set of guiding principles.something that i choose to live with.and live for.

that's how important it is.