im disillusioned

Tonight leaves me with disillusion. I suppose there's alot of things I don't understand and hopefully someone can come along and disclose the answer to me. Or perhaps there is no fixed answer afterall. Or perhaps I don't really wish to understand. Maybe certain things are not meant to be understood. Ever since, I've been taking such topics with a pinch of salt. Maybe I know all of this do not matter at all. In fact, they really don't. More often than not, I realise whatever we say are just moments of truths. It's a very situation-based kind of thing. As time runs, things take deflections, invisible factors come into foreplay, and we say another thing again. For me, actions speak a lot louder, yet sometimes, I do feel actions alone aren't enough. You got to live like it, you got to be the example. Lead by example. That's it. *Don't talk so much here, do your talk on the pitch

And yes, I feel very much like drinking tonight. I'm filled with thought-provoking stuff, which I can't seem to type them out. Too bad I don't have the company.

Between doing things right and doing the right things, I guess it's always challenging especially in relationship matters. Everyone is entitled to his/her opinions.(Opinions are like arseholes; everyone has one and it's full of shit :D) Therefore, listening will just do. I'm learning to listen more;learning to reserve my opinions & not jump to conclusions. I guess that will only be fair.

Noted.

My consolidation tonight: Humans are selfish. So, let's spare a thought for others.