what do u call a live fish which doesn't move around in its tank - as good as dead

okayy..tonight's one of my less hectic nights..and yet im refusing to go to bed even though i need sleep badly. so i log in to this account and hope to pen something, when i dont have anything concrete in mind. it will be a rubbish entry, well..so be it. many times i wonder who i can talk to with regard to my inner feelings,my deeper thoughts, and the exact number of times i will come to have the same answer. it is sad. no doubt. mayb i should just leave it lying low...don't even bother about it...hope it continues being low and stay dormant...and disintegrate one day. this shouldnt be the way.it shouldnt be. yea..perhaps lifeless is an apt description of me.i think it is. i dont even know how to continue typing now...im feeling dead. day in day out, i only want the year to end. i suppose nobody can understand.i dont want any of you to understand too. i dont like to share ugly things.besides, crap isnt meant to be shared. i only want 08 to come quick. that will mean a lot. well they say if you pick up one end of the stick, you will pick up the other end of the stick too. anything that u attempt at, there will be an outcome. no outcome is still an outcome. i know i failed. i know everything has come to naught. i know.i know.i know.

i dont want to know anymore...