SANGUINE

realise I've been keying lots of entries lately.life's getting stoney probably because of all the day-long-night-short weekdays.This forum has automatically become my friend, my soulmate. And sadly, these days won't be short. Even at this point in time, I should be heading for my bed, yet somehow, there's this refusal to welcome tomorrow. They say tomorrow is a new day. I think it is still the same. I wanna confide and I know there's no one to. Maybe thats why im talking to this com. lacks human touch, lacks feeling. but still, better than nothing. really appreciate that there are still 2 great pple whom i can at least chat up with especially during weekdays. brenda, karen. im refering to you two.(thank you) no doubt i understand they have heavy work commitment...and i know i cant dwelve too much in details. and more often, negativity breeds negativity. I also dont wanna influence them adversely. But at the minimal least, i know everything's not that bad.

And i know airing too much here isnt too healthy. Afterall, 'what you are shouts so loud into my ears i cannot hear what you say'. There are more impactful things than words alone. yet again, i cant be too bothered right now. and i know the longer i stay here, the lesser rest i will have, the higher the inertia tomorrow. guess this is just one of the nights of which i just want to seek some time alone, fill myself with music, gather some peace.

soccer was liberating today. at the beginning, just stroking some passes around...mind wasnt really into the game. after a while, decided to play better and expend a little more effort. hit 2 long range shots, exactly where i wanted to. one top left, one top right. those 2 instants; they are the ones that made you feel you are one piece, where your body listens to your brain, and that translation is perfect. it's this translation that liberates everything away from you. but it's mini short. only long enough to mumble a Yes.and no more.

i only want the simplest of things. One good meal and soccer every weekend. Hope that will ride me through.

alright, time to sleep.goodnight HQ.

And I finally got a title for this entry.