Emotional maturity.
I think that's something all of us ought to learn and apply.
When one lacks that, one is definitely going to be heavily penalised. Don't believe, try it in office. And the worst thing is, it has devastating rippling effects for others around you. The best reaction I can think of when somebody does that, will be a smack on your forehead.(that msn emoticon) Wa.it's so damn exasperating. How would you have even wondered that people of this age can conjure up such stupidity? Goodness.

Anyway, I guess all of us tend to pick up this bad bad habit as we grow older.
Of saying that you acknowledge the existence of the problem/understand the panic-stricken's situation etc, and the next thing you do is to cast that away or compartmentalize it.The moment you say you acknowledge, the next moment you discard it. Talk about acknowledgement.Bullshit. Genuine acknowledgement has got to be being a patient audience, willing to listen and not hear. You recognise the problem and set about improving matters. Not just acknowledge and ignore. Don't undermine the word acknowledge please.
And for goodness sake, the way you see the problem is the problem.
Check your lenses la.

*~*

coco lee - baby im sorry

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NjAVsGsQ4_o

如果能在遇见你 把你抱紧
从此不分离 绝不放弃

HEADING FOR WAR

Might be courting death this time. But no doubt, there's no reason to be shoved around anymore. This move is a major gamble, there is no room for error. But I know Im going in strong. Im aware of getting injured, but Im not afraid. I've had enough to even be afraid. We've had enough. Regardless of the outcome, I'll be proud of myself.because everything is congruent within.

因为做回自己才是最重要的

SANGUINE

realise I've been keying lots of entries lately.life's getting stoney probably because of all the day-long-night-short weekdays.This forum has automatically become my friend, my soulmate. And sadly, these days won't be short. Even at this point in time, I should be heading for my bed, yet somehow, there's this refusal to welcome tomorrow. They say tomorrow is a new day. I think it is still the same. I wanna confide and I know there's no one to. Maybe thats why im talking to this com. lacks human touch, lacks feeling. but still, better than nothing. really appreciate that there are still 2 great pple whom i can at least chat up with especially during weekdays. brenda, karen. im refering to you two.(thank you) no doubt i understand they have heavy work commitment...and i know i cant dwelve too much in details. and more often, negativity breeds negativity. I also dont wanna influence them adversely. But at the minimal least, i know everything's not that bad.

And i know airing too much here isnt too healthy. Afterall, 'what you are shouts so loud into my ears i cannot hear what you say'. There are more impactful things than words alone. yet again, i cant be too bothered right now. and i know the longer i stay here, the lesser rest i will have, the higher the inertia tomorrow. guess this is just one of the nights of which i just want to seek some time alone, fill myself with music, gather some peace.

soccer was liberating today. at the beginning, just stroking some passes around...mind wasnt really into the game. after a while, decided to play better and expend a little more effort. hit 2 long range shots, exactly where i wanted to. one top left, one top right. those 2 instants; they are the ones that made you feel you are one piece, where your body listens to your brain, and that translation is perfect. it's this translation that liberates everything away from you. but it's mini short. only long enough to mumble a Yes.and no more.

i only want the simplest of things. One good meal and soccer every weekend. Hope that will ride me through.

alright, time to sleep.goodnight HQ.

And I finally got a title for this entry.

she's still the most important, really

I suppose what I told weijun today speaks lots for myself, albeit useless.

天使

I think this is the best of wu yue tian's songs so far.simply good.
tingly sad melody, yet a rejuvenating beat...
an innocent sense of renewed strength....

你就是我的天使
保护著我的天使
从此我再没有忧伤
你就是我的天使
给我快乐的天使
甚至我学会了飞翔
飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎黱样
只要有你就会是天堂
像孩子依赖著肩膀 像眼泪依赖著脸庞
你就像天使一样 给我依赖 给我力量
像诗人依赖著月亮 像海豚依赖海洋
你是天使 你是天使
你是我最初和最后的天堂

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-N0f1nQAf8k

#@&*$$@!@

For most periods of the time, I thought I was the doctor and he was the patient.tmd.

Of pain, tears and what-nots

It's not that I don't care anymore. In fact, I do still care a lot. Yet it seems like I am being cast away. Deprived of that chance. Not being able to anymore.

It's friggging painful.

The past four days were pathethic.grumpy.pure shit.I've wanted to blog a huge chapter down initially but have decided against it becuz it's the weekend! Don't ever want to look back anymore becuz everyday counts towards the sacred date. 've never been so focused on this date, except for now.and from now. Looking forward to the end of the year.

~*~

"What's most important is to see, not hear."
■How the world appears to be is determined by how you perceive. Perception forms your world.
■Light waves travel faster than sound waves. Speed is paramount. If you're able to see it for yourself, you're up front. At the point you get to receive news, you're already behind.
■Seeing is believing. Hearing is speculation.

NIGHT OF 16TH JAN

Tonight, the sky's littered with many glittering stars.
Sauntering down the lonely road...breezes against forehead...the solemn night sky
Crisp columns of cold dry air
How i wish you were by my side
An empty stomach, a heavy heart
My heart cringed once again. My breathing hastened once again.

I made a wish tonight

O-F-F-Izzz

A pat on the back is only a few centimeters from a kick in the butt.
Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.
The more crap you put up with, the more crap you are going to get.
You can go anywhere you want if you look serious and carry a clipboard.
Eat one live toad the first thing in the morning and nothing worse will happen to you for the rest of the day.
When the bosses talk about improving productivity, they are never talking about themselves.
If at first you don't succeed, try again. Then quit. No use being a fool about it.
Everything can be filed under 'miscellaneous".
Never delay the ending of a meeting or the beginning of a cocktail hour.
To err is human, to forgive is not our policy.
Anyone can do any amount of work provided it isn't the work he/she is supposed to be doing.
If you're good, you will be assigned all the work. If you're really good, you will get out of it.
You are always doing something marginal when the boss drops by your desk.
People who go to conferences are the ones who shouldn't.
If it wasn't for the last minute, nothing would get done.
When you don't know what to do, walk fast and look worried.
No matter how much you do, you never do enough.

SILOSA BEACH RESORT

my cousin, my brother and I up on the 'skyride'

my brother and I along the corridor
on our way to musical fountain..zzz
the rooftop at the resort! waterfall behind meeee
in our room



just to share it with you. =)

Burning out.

~*~

It's times like this that makes me stop and think if I should ever touch the ball again.
Stop.Think.Stop.Think.
Lack of quality sleep ╦ Not enough rest for back
Plus all the standing and insufficient cushion
It's taking a toll.

为什么还要我用微笑来带过