YOU ARE LYING THROUGH YOUR TEETH

Time and again, I tell myself to trust them.
I gave chances.
Perhaps I am always optimistic that things will turn out better. I always believe that the goal will come. When they don't, you convince yourself again. Again and again. And precisely because of the way things have always been, I always lose. The key word is always. Yes I keep trying, and I keep losing. I don't try -and to lose of course, but it always happens to be so. Because all along they aren't meant to be true in the first place.
I see discrimination happening to myself.
I always feel shortchanged. Cheated. Manipulated.
All lies. All liars.
I detest liars. They don't deserve anything.
Realising that I will be shaped to be the new year guinea pig doesnt make things better.
So helpless. Knowing your ugly fate ruins everything.
Blaming culture I call it.

Don't take things for granted.
For one day, they will vanish right before your eyes.

sometimes you're only left to talk to yourself