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I felt humiliated today. Jabs of compulsion and obligation.

When you stumble, you depend on me to back you. When I cant, you blast. Seriously, if it's your ricebowl, you got to learn how to keep it. At the very least, you answer for yourself. Talk about pride. Just take your pride and eat it lah. tmd.

Stretched.When I found myself being compelled, I grit my teeth. I am not one who retaliates.I dont retaliate. I just wanna speak for myself, speak for those whom I feel for. The big picture is always on my mind. I know i cant land myself in trouble. Too much is at stake. As I grit tighter and maintained my stand, it didnt seem that there was any way out. When I blurted out THE answer eventually, I knew I went against myself. I knew I'd lost. It was such a sourish,pricky feeling. I could feel tears welling up within.

It was one of those moments I wish she was just right beside me.

I just want to take a long bus ride with my mp3. I miss you.