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In this universal phase of deceit, speaking the truth is an act of revolt.

you are not innocent to say that you are innocent

It is only the beginning.when work hasnt really kicked in.yet i am alreadyy jaded.tied down.siann diaoo.totally. there's no locus of control in this environment, you just go around woofing for your bone.sometimes you know it's shit.and you have to eat up that shit. been informed that my job scope's quite demanding.oh wells. life's a stuggle, re zi bu hao guo. hope.can only hope.hope i can still turn up for the dinner on fri.hope most of you all can make it too. think it will be fun.

been there done that dont wanna do it again

PES E

wooooo....back from tekong.very lucky, our bunks were just right beside the sea.wad day/night(studied in geog) breezes...ahaa..every breeze we also can feel.budden i fifth storey.have to climb so many steps every time.hurt my back only. though one good thing is...less mosquitoes i guess. regarding how my bmt went..haha if u all interested, can come talk to me la.dont wish to put here. met a few steady bros from my bunk.haha.spent our last night chilling until 3plus.this morn woke up blurS.we also always the last few ones to fall in.heh. laxingg.

anyways, on a more serious note, this morn one officer cautioned us that pes e guys are sure to be looked down upon. throughout, seemes to me that army boys regard us as a hopeless batch of pple.intructors dont really bother about us. yes,it may seem impossible for the group with various medical backgrounds to participate in physical activities, and needless to say, maintaining discipline is even tougher.furthermore, there's sure to be some cocks trying to be smart alec,seek attention,extra..(oh wells,that always happens isnt it)which ultimately gave instructors a hard time since they cant punish us owing to our medical backgrounds . it is really quite saddening to see different people with handicaps,especially those with hole in the heart,and worst of all, mental problem. and it is reeeely disgusting to witness some bastards repeatedly mocking at a guy who has a childish behaviour after instructors have informed everyone about his mental condition. it's so true,some people really never learn. whereas some people suffer without really understanding why. how sad huh. it's not a problem if one has low IQ, tolerance can be factored in to do the necessary. but if one doesnt has EQ, he can jolly well jump. start learning please.

2030--disillusioned

i know u, i dont know u

think the offside rule in soccer is a beautiful rule.it makes people to play smartly.yes.play smart.be a thinking player.forwards have to check their runs,make diagonal runs,open up play to slice defences apart. defenders have to be in sync,move as a unit, read moves intelligently. without this rule, soccer would have been much less exciting.beautiful. once told yux before playing soccer is very much like human relationships.u got to defend,u got to attack.thats the game.as easy as that.but of cos,it is often not. sometimes u have to take a proactive approach to shower concern over your frends,sometimes u stay back and welcome concern from others. sometimes u make good passes.sometimes your passes go stray. sometimes u net a goal.who knows u could also have netted an own goal. sometimes fatigue overwhelms u.u feel like giving up. sometimes u enjoy the company. steady relationships dont stop with the whistle, u continue to play your matches. some just end with the whistle.:[ Similarly, in touch rug, gaining and losing territory is also part and parcel of life.u move up and down. life is about ups and downs. u think of ways to wriggle past opponents. a dive,a touchdown, u feel proud. u learn to embrace.u learn to cherish.u learn to explore. it is akin to maintaining the tension of a string. we are on the balancing beam. wonder if positions we play in reflect our character...hmm.

prom's prompt. comes and goes likes the wind.no delay.no extension. experiences are priceless.
that's 2 years.
that's nj.
cheers~

~take it like a man~

prom

so it's over.another chapter closes.jc concludes.